Sunday, December 18, 2011

I am so bad at blogging!!

I need lessons in blogging because im very bad at it! I always forget to update, I can not believe its been 3months since my last post! Maybe that should be a new years resolution? Blog weekly? :)

Well, we just arrived back in Virginia. I miss St Thomas but im glad to be back in VA, I love it here! I have finished everything for unit 1 and have all my hours but I still have one book (that im getting for Christmas!!) that I have to finish. SO hopefully by Kade's 1st birthday ill be starting on Unit 2! Yep, thats right... Kade's 1st birthday! I can hardly believe it!! Im starting to get my craving for another pregnancy, birth, and baby! :) All the more reason to get my head fully back into my books!!


Have a very Merry Christmas and be looking for my New Years update!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Getting back into the swing of things, in a new location!

My little family and I have made a huge move to St Thomas, Virgin Islands so I've been slack on updating (and studying) but now that everyone is settled in it is time to get back to the books! I have been searching for local midwifes but cant find ANY! That is both bad and good.... Bad because I have nobody to train or work with while I study but with the MW2B program I can travel for 1-2 weeks at a time attending births and get in hours/catches.  Good because if we decide to stay here once I am finished with my studies I can start up my home birth business and possibly open up what would be the only birthing center on the island... all I know is St Thomas needs midwifes, definitely!

Monday, August 29, 2011

Facebook is study time? Sign me up!!

A email went around the the MW2B students stating that facebook (and other blog/internet sites) time spent reading/discussing birth can be credited to study hours... This is music to my ears because I spend at least and hour a day on various blogs and facebook pages that have to do with natural birthing, breastfeeding, home birth, midwives, ect. That is absolutely awesome!  :)  Learning from books is great, but its amazing what you learn from others and their real life sittuations!

Still loving my choice to become a midwife. Its a perfect fit for me! Almost done with Unit One... I still have to get the darn Practical Skills Guide once money allows, then ill really be done with U1.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

"Give me my mommy's boobs!"

WELL, after almost 6 1/2 months of exclusively breastfeeding and having to listen to everyone ask when my son could have "real food" and having to explain why I was holding off on solids over and over again...
Kade had his first taste of food last night. Sweet potato (real, not the nasty jar stuff), and this is what he thought of having something other than mommy's milk in his mouth :)  He did not ingest it, just smacked on it for a few seconds then spit it out and started clawing at my boobs. He nursed for 45min non stop after that... ♥ my booby baby! Hopefully that appeased everyone (ie: his dad and grandparents) and he can continue on the breast until he starts picking it up and putting it in his mouth by himself, not sure im going to have to worry about that for a little while after the looks of discuss on his face he gave us last night.

Nothing better than a great birth to amp you up!

I got to witness a beautiful birth Thursday morning (8/11) at Carolina Community Maternity Center in Ft Mill, SC. Two family friends welcomed new baby John, earthside at 10:45am and I had the pleasure of being there. It was a very intense (first baby) labor of around 11hours but mom held in there and did a great job (so did dad). Everyone was so happy, I couldn't help but cry tears of happiness with them!

There is nothing better to amp you up to study than seeing a precious baby born into the world :) It gave me a huge boost! I was slacking off on study time the past couple of weeks (taking naps when Kade did, playing games on my phone when I couldn't sleep, ect), but im back on track! I have finished my clinical hours for unit one and have completed almost half of my study hours for unit one (20hrs of 45). I have a small section of Holistic Midwifery and half of Maternal-Newborn Nursing left to do and I still need to get the practical skills guide and do my reading in that, once I finish those books I will be done with unit one and on to unit two!!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Kade is 6 months today! My birth story!

My baby boy is 6 months old today, I can not believe it! To celebrate im posting his birth story for all :)


The Birth of Myles Kade Johnson
February 9th, 2011 3:50am
7lbs 2oz and 21in


On Tuesday, February 8th, I woke up and was feeling a little "off" and kind of crampy, not a big deal or something out of the ordinary when your extreamly pregnant! Around 11am went to the bathroom and discovered I had lost part of my mucous plug. I texted my midwife to let her know but did not think much about it since you can lose it multiple times and it really had no indication of when labor
will start. A little after lunch my crampy feeling started getting more intense and figured it was my body preparing to start up labor. I went outside at 4pm and fed the horses grains so I was up for about 45min walking around in and out of stalls and riding on the bumpy ground in the Gator going from barn to barn. I went inside and started doing some laundry and realized my cramps were pretty consistant and started wondering if my "crampin" was easy contractions. They did not feel like the contractions I had been feeling for weeks with prodromal labor so I just brushed them off all day figuring it would stop like it had multiple times.

Around 6pm I decide to time them even though I did not think they were contractions, I did not want them to be contractions and them get too close before I realized it. I sat on my birthing ball and rocked my hips during my "cramps" and it relieved some of the pressure I was feeling. Between 6pm and 6:30pm I had 7 "cramps" putting them at 5-6min apart and lasting about 40 seconds. I decided they were really contractions but that since they were so easy that nothing was happening anytime soon or that like they had in the past weeks that they would stop. Mark came in from work and we decided to go to the Chuckwagon to eat dinner.
We shared Jalapeno & Rib Meat Potato "Nachos" for an apitizer and I had a Chicken, Onion & Pepers Quesadilla. I had contractions all through the meal and they stayed pretty consistant and seamed to get a bit stronger in intensity but I still did not think "this was it".

We got home a little after 9pm and jumped in the bed for some mommy & daddy time... of course having to stop every few min for contractions!! I went to the bathroom and lost more of my mucous plug and had some bloody show. It was around 10pm and I decided to start timing my contractions again, 4min apart!! I was trying not to get too excited because for weeks I had contractions (some as close as 3min apart) and these were not as bad as those so surely it couldn't be labor, right? I also figured if it was labor it was just starting and this being my first child it would be a while before my labor was in full swing and he was born. We went to bed to try and get some sleep and I was guessing that everything would cool down a little bit. I was having trouble falling alseep so a little after 11pm I decided to get into the bath tub and try to relax to help me go to sleep, I listened to a few of my hypnobabies tracks and started feeling tired so I went back to bed hoping to get some sleep because at this point I knew I was in the begining stages of labor and needed to rest up.

That did not happen! At midnight I started feeling my contractions MUCH stronger and quiet often so I woke Mark up and told him he needed to wake up because I was in labor for real and I was not going to be up all by myself! For some reason it was irritating me seeing him asleep peacefully while I was having contractions. It took a good 15min for him to get up and he was a bit annoyed! My contractions were 3min apart at this point so we pulled out the birth pool to get it blown up, I totally forgot we did not have a wall plug for the air pump so Mark had to take the birth pool outside to his car and plug it into the lighter plug in the freezing cold to blow it up. While he was blowing up the pool most likely was the most stressful  part of my labor because all I wanted to do was get into the water.


I was going back and forth from laying in the bed, being on my hands and knees leaning over my birthing ball, snugling my pillow on the floor, and walking from room to room. Mark started filling up the pool around 1:30am and I texted one of my midwifes because I couldnt talk through my contractions and they were right at 2min apart from begining of one to the begining of the next. They both live about an hour away so I knew it would be a little while before they got there but I had no worried because I thought I was still at the begining stages of labor, the pain was really not that bad at all. I decided to wait until they got there and we saw how things were going to text any family members and let them know he was coming.

My midwifes, Aimee & Desiree, got there at 3:10am and I was in the pool. I decided to get out to let them check me. The minute I got out I felt like I had to use the bathroom so I sat on the toilet and tried to use the bathroom but nothing was happening, got on my hands and knees and tried, squated and tried but no poop! My midwifes told me it was the baby I was feeling so I stopped trying and layed on the couch for Dessire to check me. My contracting were so strong and often that before she could check anything I had to roll off the couch and get on my hands and knees because my contractions were coming so strong. I kept telling them, "I seriously have to shit so bad" and they said no that it wazs babys head making it feel like I needed to. I continued to go through contractions on the floor huging my pillow and leaning forward onto Marks chest. I was pushing in different possitions (trying to go poop) for a good 10min.

They then told me if I wanted to have a water birth Id better get back into the tub so I started crawling back into the kitchen and on my way back to the tub my water broke and there was a huge decrease in preassure. I got back into the tub and got on my knees leaning against the edge of the pool holding onto Mark and biting his hand with every contraction. I kept telling (im not sure who) that I wnated pictures and videos, my exact words were "Im not having a water birth and not having video proof". But things were moving too fast for anyone to worry about getting video or pictures! When I felt his head starting to crown I said something about was this seriously it, I couldnt believe he was about to come out! I told Mark to hurry and grab my phone to text my Mom and Dad because they would be mad and I had promised my Mom I would not wait to call until after he was born, oops! He sent a text that said, "Kade is on his way, dont call please" because I knew she would be calling and we were a little far into labor to be talking on the phone.

My body then took over and started pushing itself and after 5min of being in the birth pool his head emerged, I was so excited for the pause in between birthing the head and the body that I always heard people talk about but my midwifes said to keep pushing because he had oppened his eyes and was looking like he was about to take a breath and they did not want him to breath the water in. I gave two pushes and his body was out. I started pushing at 3:35am and he was born at 3:50am.

I think my mind went blank for a second out of shock that he was here because I was in my own little world and it took me a second to capture my thoughts, they told me to reach down and bring him up out of the water. I pulled my little boy from the water and snuggled him to my chest and was speachless. It took him seconds to cry but his eyes were open and looking at me, it was a wonderful quiet moment where I conected with my son. I sat back but could not sit down because his cord was too short to keep him out of the water unless I was squating. Mark came behind me and had his arms around us and I was in pure heaven. I had to get out of the water after a few minutes since I could not keep him out of the water and it was getting a bit chilly. We layed on the couch and he latched on wonderfully and nursed for a good 20min before I got on the birthing stool to deliver my placenta. After it was delivered we wrapped it up in a chux pad and layed back down on the couch and he continued to nurse for at least another 45min while I got checked out. I had a tiny tear but nothing bad thank goodness!

My labor and birth with Kade is by far the most amazing thing ive ever experianced. I can not believe how easy and natural it was. My body knew what it was doing and I believed in the ability I have as a woman to give birth. I feel very lucky to have felt what I thought was the "easy part" begining of labor when I was in my last two hours and what ive always heard to be the most painful part. My birth was very minimal pain and Kade had such a beautiful passage into the world.


My first picture with my son a few min after bringing him out of the water.

First nursing




Thursday, August 4, 2011

World Breast feeding Week!!

World Breastfeeding Week is August 1st-7th! Ive been exclusively nursing Kade for 6 months (on the 9th) and we don't plan to stop anytime soon! My 7lbs 2oz baby has thrived off mommy's milk and now weighs 17lbs 5oz. So blessed to have had such success with nursing, we absolutely love it!

And how befitting that I'm currently reading Maternal-Newborn Nursing

Monday, July 25, 2011

Everyone has their own views, so what are mine?

I have been asked numerous times my views and opinions on many things and it seams that when I answer the next question is "Why?" or "What made you decide that?". This post is a list of a few questions im often asked, my answers, and my personal experiences that led to my decisions. Remember, these are my opinions and even thought I feel strongly about them it does not mean I judge people who chose to do things a different way. Everyone has their own views, these are mine.


Natural Birthing:
Why go through all the pain of if you don't have to, why natural birth?
Birth does not have to be horribly painful! You can have a easy enjoyable birth without medication. My birth with Kade was minimal pain and it was all natural. For me the discomfort was worth it, being able to bring my baby into the world naturally with no drugs in our system was rewarding for me because I was doing what I believe to be best for me and my baby.

Why do you feel so strongly about birthing at home?
I feel strongly about birthing at home because labor is not a medical event. A woman with a normal low risk pregnancy does not need to be in a hospital, hospitals are for sick people and birth surely is not an illness! Women who want a natural birth have so many obstacles set before them when they step foot in the hospital. To name a few - Induction if you go "too far" post date, routine procedures (vaginal exams, IV, etc), being denied food and beverages, strapped to monitors... the list goes on. When a woman is at home she avoids all of those obstacles. Is this saying a woman can not have a natural birth in a hospital, no.


What is your opinion on different styles of care providers?
This is what I have personally experienced and also some of what Ive gathered from others.
OBGYN - I started my pregnancy with a OB and it took all of 3 visits to realize I did not like being under the care of an OB. I would arrive to my appointment and wait for about 30min, get called back pee then wait another 10min, get weighed and blood pressure taken then wait another 15min just to get called back into a room and wait another 5min to see the OB who would speak to me for all of 10min and then it was time to leave. In my opinion that is NOT good prenatal care. I will not bash on OBGYN's because they have a purpose and are greatly needed. But I feel they should be for women who are truly high risk and need the extra attention of a doctor during pregnancy and for well women care.

Certified Nurse Midwife - IF a woman is not comfortable birthing outside of a hospital a CNM is (usually) the way to go. You get the quality care of a midwife while being in a hospital, that is what many women want! However, you have to make sure you chose one that has the beliefs more of a midwife than an OB. I saw a practice of CNM's that worked under a OB during part of my pregnancy as well and I swear all four of them were brainwashed mini obgyn's. The care was no different than that of a OBGYN. So as far as my opinion goes if you can find a good midwifery based CNM its a wonderful choice and some do practice outside of the hospital as well... just be weary of the ones who are less naturally minded.

Certified Professional Midwife - CPM's practice only out of hospital, for women who want a home birth or to birth at a birthing center. This is (my opinion) one of your best options as far as birthing attendants go! The quality of care is far more superb than that of an OB or in hospital CNM from day one well into the birthing, including postpartum. To name a few pros - you have a direct line to your midwife, are never on a time crunch, know your care provider personally, know what to expect and that they support your birthing plans. And I will be fair and name a few "cons" Ive heard - a CPM can not give you an epidural, most have to send you elsewhere for an ultrasound,  and does not have medical training (but thats okay because we already disused that birth is not a medical event, right?).

Unlicensed/Underground Midwifes - In many states there is not a licensing available for CPM's and a midwife attending a home birth (unless a CNM) can be found guilty of criminal charges. For that reason many midwifes living in those states dont get licensed, they can provide the same quality care as licensed midwifes they just are not able to receive the licensing. There are also midwifes who prefer not to be licensed so they can attend births that licensed midwifes are not supposed to attend due to regulations with the state (breech, twin, ect.). I am currently living in a state that does not have licensing for CPM's so if I have another baby while still living here I will most likely use a unlicensed midwife.

Breastfeeding:
How long will you breastfeed?
Ive gotten this question a few times and I cant answer it because I will breastfeed until he weans. My goal is 2 years... at a certain point I will stop nursing and continue to pump to give in sippy cups. Breastfeeding has nutritional values beyond the infant stage and I believe it is best.

Are you against formula feeding? Most don't like my answer so be warned... I am against formula feeding without at least trying breastfeeding for the first 6 weeks. There are far to many women who WANT to breastfeed and really can not, women who decide not to just because they don't want to truly take it for granted. Formula is nowhere as close to as beneficial as breast milk and their is no arguing that. If you can give your baby the best, why settle for formula? That being said, if formula has to be given (because in some cases its truly needed) its best to find a organic formula that has no additives, GMO's, etc.

Vaccinating:
Why did you decide not to give vaccinations? This questions usually ends up having thirty minute answer so I will shorten it up and just list a few reasons that are personal in our decision making. I dont believe in injecting my son with viruses so that he wont catch them? The ingredients... all I have to say is look them up! I don't want any fetus cells, aluminum, gelatin, ect. put into my child's body! I believe in boosting the immune system and being healthy so the body can fight off those sicknesses and viruses when they come around.

Circumcision:
Why are you against circumcision? This is another question that usually has a long answer and ill shorten it up too. Again for me personally... my son was born perfect and whole the way God designed him, there is no reason to alter that. There is no cleanliness or infection issues if you take proper care, and guess what! Ive had to do no extra care for my son, you simply leave it alone until they are old enough to clean it themselves! This is a serious debate topic and I try not to go into it unless someone wants to speak about it but here is something to think about, Medicaid in many states wont cover circumcision because it is a unnecessary cosmetic surgery, what does that say about it?

Sunday, July 17, 2011

My thoughts on Natural Childbirth the Bradley Way

I finished reading Natural Childbirth the Bradley Way... still not a huge fan.

The term "husband coached" birthing really bugs me. A woman does not need coaching to give birth, she needs a supportive husband not a coaching one! I do think for the woman who might not be very comfortable with birthing, wants the father to be heavily involved, or the couple who want to birth as a unit that it would be helpful and a good read. But not for a mother who likes to birth alone and be left alone.  Overall the information was good, they lay out the truth on many hospital procedures such as the IV, AROM, induction, pain meds, caesarian, ect. as well as the stages of labor, easy to understand explanation on how the birthing process happens and good birthing positions.  I dont agree with the breathing technique they use, BUT again like the coaching some mothers need that during birth, while some do not. For a couple birthing in a hospital it would be very beneficial to read, Im just not sure I would recommend it to those birthing outside of the hospital. I would love to be able to see the structure of an actual Bradley childbirth class, the book was written a while ago and im interested in the difference (if there is any) between the book and the class.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

One week down, a lifetime to go!

I never thought I would love to have my head shoved into books studying, but its all I want to do! Its amazing that subjects I hated in high school (like chemistry) im enjoying because of what it leads to, midwifery!

During kade's naps I have been able to get a good 30min to an hour of reading in and at night once Kade and MJ fall asleep I go sit in the bonus room and study for an hour or two. I have now been studying for a week, I have completed 7 hours of my 45 self study hours needed for this unit. I hope to be able to pick it up this week and get a good 3 or more hours a day, now that I'm settled into how things work. Tuesdays afternoons are now coffee shop study days while Kade visits his Nona and Friday mornings are study time while MJ and Kade play. Im so blessed that everyone in my family is supportive and wants to help me succeed! just watching Kade for 3hrs makes a world of difference to me (and my concentration).

Natural Childbirth the Bradley Way is one of the books I selected to read this unit, Ive read it before but not since before Kade was born and I never "studied it" because I was using Hypnobabies. I honestly cant decide how I feel about it, the whole "husband coached" thing irritates me. A woman does not need to be "coached" her and her body know what to do... I prefer "husband supported birth". Im almost done with the book and after I take my test and do the book review I will share it here.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Natural in Nature

I had to share these because I absolutely LOVE them, I'm so glad I have them!

Unit 1 book choices

In addition to the work in the three main books (Varney's, Holistic Midwifery, and Practical Skills Guide) and clinical hours... each unit I will have to select two books from the list (posted bellow) to take a test on and write a book review as well as a project.

For unit one the two books I have chosen are Natural Childbirth the Bradley Way and Spiritual Midwifery. For unit one the project I chose is to find referrals (pregnancy centers, WIC, abuse centers, etc.) in the area.

Tomorrow I am diving into the Bradley book (it will be my 3rd time reading it) to freshen up and hope to test for it in a week!

I also spoke with a friend who is so graciously allowing me to attend her hypnobabies birthing center birth! Im so excited and blessed to get to attend a birth in the next month or so!!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Its official I am a MWTB student midwife!!

I enrolled today for the course and thanks to a very generous woman Varney's Midwifery and Holistic Midwifery are both on their way to me! Those are two of the three main books I will need and they are NOT cheap!! I am very blessed, the road is being paved for me to start my training.

I will need many books, bellow is a list of them. If anyone is selling or has any of them they would like to lend or donate please let me know!

Phase 1

  • Practical Skills Guide
  • Varney's Midwifery
  • Holistic Midwifery Vol. 1
  • Complete Book of Pregnancy and Childbirth – Kitzinger
  • Spiritual Midwifery -Ina May Gaskin
  • Heart And Hands – Elizabeth Davis
  • Bradley Book – Husband Coached Childbirth
  • Special Delivery – Rahima Baldwin
  • Prescription for Dietary Wellness – Balch & Balch
  • Active Birth – Balaskas
  • Easing Labor Pains – Lieberman
  • Medical Terminology (any)
  • A Midwives Handbook by Sinclair
  • Birth Emergency Skills Training – Bonnie U. Gruenberg, CNM
  • Immaculate Deception 2 – Susanne Arms
  • Physical Exam – Bates
  • Maternal Newborn Nursing 7ed. – Olds & London

Phase 2

  • Human Labor & Birth -Oxorn & Foote
  • The Baby Book – Sears
  • Mommy Diagnostics – Shonda Parker
  • When Survivors Give Birth – Simkin
  • The Natural Healthy Pregnancy – Shonda Parker
  • Perinatal Impact of Alcohol, Tobacco & other – March of Dimes
  • Empty Arms – Ilse (or other baby loss book)
  • Pregnancy Childbirth & the Newborn Revised – Simkin
  • A Guide to Effective Care in Pregnancy & Childbirth – Enkin
  • Birth by Tina Cassidy or American Way of Birth – Mitford
  • The 5 Standards for Safe Childbearing – David Stewart PHD
  • Counseling The Nursing Mother – Lauwers & Shinskie
  • OB and the newborn Text – Mackey
  • Birthsong midwife workbook – Singingtree

Phase 3

  • The Cooperative Method of Natural Birth Control – Nofzinger
  • Understanding Diagnostic Tests in the Childbearing Year – Anne Frye

Sunday, July 3, 2011

The begining of my journey - Learning the ways of a midwife!

My journey begins in the summer of 2010, I was 3 months pregnant with my son and seeking prenatal care. I decided I wanted to go the natural route and use a midwife. After only a few visits with what I will forever consider to be a "medwife" I decided that using a CNM in a hospital was not the correct route for me. I canceled my next appointment and started looking into a freestanding birthing center right over the state line. I started reading and researching on everything related to birthing outside of the hospital. The minute I stepped foot inside the birthing center I felt a sense on comfort and safety. We went to our first appointment and instantly clicked with the midwife, a wonderful CPM, and must have spent over an hour talking. I looked forward to every appointment with her, I no longer felt uncomfortable or pushed but instead felt as thought what was going on was my decision and it was respected.

As we prepared for our birth at the birth center I also learned about this crazy thing women do... home birth!! I was very interested but my first Google search into it told me home birth was illegal in my state so I left it alone. I knew however, my next birth I wanted to be a home birth! I continued to research about it and longed to have my baby at home, but my mothers home? No thanks!! In December of 2010 MJ moved to VA to get a job and get things ready for our new baby and I to move up, since I was comfortable and ready for a birth at the birthing center we decided I would stay and he would go, a nice 6 hour drive away. It did not take long for me to decided I did not like this arrangement, at 9 months pregnant and 5 weeks till my "due date" I traveled to VA to stay for two weeks. During those weeks I started looking at birthing centers in the area and decided I did not want to continue being so far away.

Im not sure what made me look, but I made the best Google search I could ever make and found that home birth was not only legal in VA but there were many midwifes to chose from! I knew 100% that I wanted a home birth and did not want to wait till the next one. Why? What was the point? I spoke to MJ and he agreed to meet with two midwifes that I had selected after reading wonderful things about them in a online home birth community for VA. With only a few weeks till my "due date" and having everyone tell me that my "baby would be here any day" we met with the midwifes. After only 5 minutes I knew they were a perfect fit!! I learned so much from them during the last weeks of pregnancy and my passion for natural and normal birthing grew every day.

On February 9th 2011 my son emerged in a pool of water in the middle of our kitchen into my hands. Two weeks later while holding my little boy I felt what I thought was baby fever, but how could it be since I was holding my brand new baby in my arms. What was I feeling? Birth Fever! I was longing to give birth again, many women would call me crazy but I was! It was then I realized I wanted to be involved in birth somehow, there was no other way I could satisfy my (what I call) birth craving!! After birth your supposed to stop researching and reading about pregnancy and birth, right? Not me!! I continued reading as thought I were pregnant, every day I learned something new! Besides my precious new baby, birth was all I could think about! At the end of my pregnancy MJ mentioned I would be an awesome midwife, I brushed it off because how could I be a midwife!?  Who knew shortly after my sons birth I would be sitting at my computer nursing my baby looking at midwifery training programs.

Having a new baby, money is tight, so while looking at schools I had to pass up many wonderful training programs. I continued to look and pray though it seamed I would never be able to afford to get the training I wanted. I finally came across a program that was not only reasonable in price, but I could pay per unit as I go! I will be studying with a online program called Midwife To Be, based out of South Carolina. I will be able to pay $25 per unit (30 units) and the total cost will be $775. Thousands of dollars less than every other program I found. I will also have to pay for the many books I will need through out my training. Any donations towards my studies are greatly appreciated.

I will continue to post and update as I continue on my journey - Learning the ways of a midwife!